Life as a DISTURBING Teenager

"CONFIDENCE BREEDS THE ALLURING SIDE OF YOU WHICH YOU THOUGHT NEVER EXISTED"

Life isn't always a burst of sunshine. Being a teen girl of seventeen who was severely bullied in her pre-teen years, I was never the same girl that people labeled growing girls. I used to take bruises on my knees and cry alone on a tragic night, blaming my classmates when I was just 13. Bullying eventually stopped, but some trust issues were imprinted deeply in my heart. I was devoid of a friend till I passed my junior schooling.

I was constantly blaming everyone for my anger issues. I used to scream at every one if they inflict the underlying pain in me in little sense. So being tired of loneliness at an early age, I decided to change my behavior and trust issues. Now I'm in high school with tons of great permanent friends surrounding me. My Mom is my best friend and most beautiful mentor in business and other stunning aspects of life. In this journey, I realized that It's up to us how we'd like to view the world because beauty always lies in the beholder's eyes.

"Life is hard if you make a good decision it's even much more harder if you take bad decision."

It has always been us...only us to create a life of our own. I'm the kind of girl who gets sad in every tiny little thing, and I'm also that teen who's so rebellious when something is not perfect. I guess we have all been there when the black rage of overthinking creeps in. It's so hard to wake up from bed even though the eyes are wide open in the dawn. I used to wonder, What is that thing anchoring me down in my own bed when some part of me desperately wanna wake up and seize the day?

That answer came relatively easy... It was the lack of PURPOSE!!

I know what you're thinking. "Why is this girl shitting all gooey talks about purpose when she's just 17?'' But hey! I am allowed to be uncertain and choose the thing I like or possibly find something I love. See, the thing I am trying to say is you're never early or late. You're just in time. And embrace the chaos of uncertainty when it's thrown at you. You will regret it if you leave that art class for medicine. And also, you will regret it if you embrace art class and kick the medicine. The decision we should take must be based on less regret.

So my reader, what will you regret less art class or medicine!?

I prefer to fly than being caged in my own emotional loop. Life is so colorful if you choose to see the bright side filled with azure water and a lovely dawn meadow. The main problem now faced by a teenager is COMPARISON. I personally found that it's one step away from losing self-esteem and kicking your soul's gut. Confidence and self-esteem breed beauty in the most majestic form, even if you don't realize it. Like when you're singing that song, you just heard yesterday without knowing actual lyrics is liberating as fuck.

In this world filled with Kardashian and Jenner, choose to be a Curie. Not trying to feed your narcissism, but you're and have always been beautiful the way you're. Always remember that shit, readers.

Most of us are hidden from the outside world. So, don't pile your emotions as trash. The series of changes can be hay-wiring at first. But hey! changes are a necessity. Sometimes things slip out of hand and will make you think that everything that you possess is not worth it. But it's up to you whether you want to stand with your head high without believing those cynical speeches you tell about yourself or to be bedridden with all the chaos inside you without fixing it.

Think wisely and fight for yourself. Choosing a good pain over and over again is the most beautiful thing you could give for yourself as a SELF-LOVE.

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